My mom can drive me nuts because she needs to plan. I made a comment about it last week to her. We were walking the dogs and she was rattling off our to-do list for the next week. I stopped her mid-sentence and said, "Man, you like to plan." She told me that she hates feeling out of control... and planning allows her to have control, or at least make her feel like she has control. Anyway, I feel like my days now are filled with commitments, which is strange for me because I'm so used to never planning anything, but rather, being impulsive and making last-minute decisions.
But as much as the plans annoy me... I do find comfort in them. Knowing that I have to do X tomorrow gives me a reason to go to bed at a reasonable time, wake up at a regular time, and truthfully, just gives me a sense of purpose. With where I'm at in my life right now, planning is exactly what I need.
When I had my breakdown last week, my mom came over and she said the following, which I will always remember:
Mom: Next time you feel this way, you need to come to me for help. If you don't tell anyone how you're feeling, all you do is think, worry, and stress about your life, and that will make it worse. You need to be open about it so that we can come up with a plan. A plan will help you fix this and give you steps to take to make it better.
