I met with
my doctor today. I've been having a rough go of things lately, and for the
first time in a long time, I asked for help. My doctor could see how
overwhelmed I was and how out of control I felt, and she left me with a few
points that I think are relevant to us all:
- Don't be afraid to say no.
- If you don't ask for something, you won't receive it.
- You need to be at peace with yourself. Tell people when something they're doing isn't making you happy.
- You are worthy. Your opinions matter just as much as anyone else's.
If you want to make your mind, body, and
soul sick, then, by all means, avoid the uncomfortable and bottle everything inside. But if you want
to flourish, grow, and be healthy and happy… then you need to be kind to
yourself, face the things you wish you could forget, forgive yourself for
mistakes made, and get to know (and love) yourself.
I want to
be emotionally available.
I want to be okay with feeling it all…
the good, the bad, and the ugly.
I want people to know they can come to me, and
I will be honest with them about all things.
I want people to know they
can rely on me to be there for them when needed.
I want to not be ashamed
of my past, my feelings, my pain, my emotions.
I want to feel that it's okay to
be human and that it's okay to admit that I need help.
I want to be okay with making mistakes and
learn to be grateful for them because mistakes are good.
I
want to believe that it's okay to trust people and that people say
what they mean and mean what they say.
I want to stop second-guessing
compliments, words of encouragement, and kindness.
I want to stop projecting my
insecurities onto others—just because I see myself a certain way doesn't mean you see me that way.
I learned today that I shouldn't be afraid to let people in. Today I have been 100% pleasantly surprised, and 0% laughed at, mocked, or ridiculed.
